Xanga? you... missed me? I'm touched... but only to the extent that its kinda creepy. Yea.

My life is now super busy, you get out what you put in i guess... I'm looking for work all over, and getting hits like nobodies business. Although I desperately need a job at the school so i can get free tuition.... awesome? I think so.

I'm putting off accounting right now, so if anyone stumbles across this that actually lives in virginia, you should see Streetlight Manifesto on April 20 in richmond, and/or Lessthanjake, mustard plug, and suburban legend at the norva on june 20. The amount of rear kicking will be immense.

Thursdays are just funky... I end up sleeping more than i'd ever like to admit... but man there was this crazy dream...

Last night in church I found a tidbit that, it seems, i've never heard before... yet i knew it from a long time ago.

Guess we forget things... its impossible through my own power to live a Christian life. That sounds rediculous to some people right? i mean if its impossible why try?

Well remember nothing is impossible through God who strengthens me... Being filled with the Spirit is vital, no, essential to being a Christian. We relinquish control so often, becoming dissillusioned and disoriented, disparing and profane. But when  you are filled with the Spirit, you have the ability to do what God wants you to do! You don't have to live controlled by anything else... its like being a slave to Christ, you are free in him from those things that are there to dismember and destroy.

We fall when we try to live without the Spirit, by our own power. We succeed when the Spirit indwells us and we live as we have been commanded time and time again...

In doing so doesn't make life any easier... but it makes it rich and worthwhile.
Sometimes its even doing what we don't feel comfortable doing.... But doing in love what we should do, and what we are compelled through the spirit to do.

There is so much behind all this, it sounds and looks like i threw it all together (which i did duh) but I have backing for it! crazy, i know.

I guess i'll go to the game... some things are more important than silly feelings

This song reminds me of the Neverending Story... "They look like big, strong hands.. don't they?"

I am restless yet i sleep the day away

I am worried when everything is going well

I am anxious while I see the path ahead

I am nervous but I know my lines by heart

I am guilty and have yet to commit the crime

I have been taken by the collar, forced to watch, made to wait. I don't know why, because i just don't. I don't. I've found thats alright, but I kill myself with questions. Why don't I know? Well obviously because i can't, i'm not God. I have so much to learn, stuff I wasn't even convicted about till hours ago... I never thought about it.

You know, its alright to be sad from time to time... those are the times we actually get to think without hundreds of other things running through our heads. But once we have thought things through, maybe not perfectly or precisely, we can get up and thank God for that time to reflect, and definately get movin again, ain't no time to be a slackah! gosh!

A new friend taught me that, even without even knowing what happened. She's still clueless. Oh well.

I don't wanna be slack in my relationships with people... Or God for that matter! Its no consistent to have hours and hours for everyone else when you only spend a small time with God. Its funny tho, God wants us to have the same kind of relationship with him that we can have with a long lost best friend, the kind that you click with right away and you just can't stop talkin to them...those are the best...

I missed that.